Excruciating Suffering: A Personal Struggle Against the Mysterious Suffering of Cluster Headaches

It began on a overcast weekday morning in September 2016. I worked as a teacher, trying to settle a new group of students, when a intense pain sprang behind my right eye. It was followed by rapid shocks, like electric shocks. As each class progressed, the discomfort subsided and then came back with greater force. Multiple times that day I left a colleague with worksheets and hurried to the school bathroom to soak my face with cool water. I tried paracetamol, but the pain remained unbearable.

The headaches appeared repeatedly that autumn, and once more in spring, soon establishing an annual pattern. The autumn months were the most severe, then February and March. I could anticipate the pattern: a warning sensation in the shower, early pangs on the commute, full-on pain in class by 9.30am. In 2019, a doctor finally referred me to a neurologist and I was diagnosed with cluster headaches.

Cluster headaches often start with severe pain behind a single eye that lasts for three hours.

Approximately one in 1,000 people suffer by the disorder, and males are more frequently affected. Cluster headaches usually start with abrupt, excruciating pain focused on a single eye that peaks within a short time and continues for up to three hours. Episodes come in clusters, daily or several times a day, and are associated with red or watery eyes, drooping eyelids or face perspiration. There exists an episodic type, which arrives in seasonal cycles; some patients have continuous attacks, characterized by the lack of extended pain-free periods.

What unites sufferers is the intensity. One research paper scored the sensation at 9.7 10, more severe than broken bones or other conditions. Another discovered 64% of cluster patients experienced thoughts of self-harm during attacks; the figure dropped to four percent when they were pain-free.

One patient, in her seventies, a long-term sufferer from Wales, isn't surprised. Her attacks started when she was two. “I would throw myself on the floor and bang my head. That was attributed to being a difficult child,” she says. Her symptoms deteriorated through her youth. Drinking in her teens, similar to many triggers, made things more intense. After drinking alcohol at her school leaving party, she remembers barely being able to see on the transport home.

Her family often interpreted her attacks as intoxicated behavior. Understanding finally came from her parent and then from her partner, Rod. “I was very fortunate to find such an understanding person,” she says. Hobbs found clerical work after relocating, but often concealed her condition. She was dismissed from one job, partly due to time off during episodes. Her breakthrough identification came in 2002 at a specialist neurology center.

Still, the inability to plan daily activities around erratic pain took its effect. She particularly hated being unable to plan outings, being seen as unreliable as a colleague, and even having to be cared for by her children during the incapacitation caused by the worst episodes. “It robs you of the simple liberties we don't value until they're gone,” she says. She recalls obtaining tickets for a major concert, only to have an episode inside a portable toilet.


Headaches have been described throughout history. “The earliest account of headache comes by way of the Mesopotamians in 4000BC,” write experts in a publication on the subject. They attributed the ailment to an malevolent spirit who afflicted his victims' heads.

Historical medical records suggest bizarre treatments for what modern observers would classify as a headache disorder. In the medieval times, migraine was identified as a distinct condition, with therapies including bloodletting to other, more superstitious cures.

It was a Dutch physician who provided the initial detailed account of a cluster headache. In his writings, he describes a patient “suffering with a very intense headache happening and disappearing each day at fixed hours”.

Cluster headaches were only formally classified by global headache societies in 1988. From the mid-20th century to the 1990s, they were believed to be caused by a issue with a major artery that supplies blood to the head. Prominent specialists in diagnosing the condition explain this.

In 1998, researchers released the results of a research project for which they had triggered attacks in patients and observed the episodes in a brain scanner. The data, published in a major medical publication, showed increased activity of the a brain region, which is responsible for human sleep-wake cycles, when patients were in discomfort, and a reduction when they felt better.

In spite of such progress, identification remains slow. Jamie Charteris's symptoms began in the 1980s and felt like “a balloon being blown up behind my left eye”. GPs thought he had sinus problems; he underwent four operations before eventually being correctly identified in recently, after a physician researched his complaints.

Neurologists say wait times in diagnosis and managing occur because patients are seldom seen during an episode. “You're tired and low, but not in severe pain,” a doctor says. He proceeds by eliminating other common head pain conditions, such as migraine, before confirming the disorder. A detailed history is crucial: on which part of the head do symptoms appear? For how long? What time of year? Are there triggers, such as alcohol? Specific features such as tearing, sagging eyelids and stuffy nose help confirm the diagnosis. Once diagnosed, patients may be sent to dedicated clinics. But many first arrive to A&E or are given inadequate therapies.

Dorothy Chapman, in her late seventies, has experienced cluster headaches for most of her life, although she has been free from an attack since recent years. When she was in her 20s, she had her teeth extracted because dental professionals misinterpreted her symptoms. She believes the dental profession still need much more education. When another patient sought help from a charity, it was Chapman who responded. I remember calling a support line during an attack in 2021; a calm volunteer guided them through oxygen treatment and medication until the episode passed.

Official guidelines on management advise that sufferers are offered high-dose oxygen and/or a specific drug delivered by injection. No tablets or opioids should be used. Preventive choices include verapamil, which reportedly soothes the bouts of some people.

But leading neurologists argue the official guidelines need updating to reflect a clearer treatment process and help GPs avoid misprescribing. For episodic patients, the treatment window is everything: “The duration of the bout dictates the approach.” Short bouts with infrequent episodes are managed with acute treatment only. More prolonged or more severe bouts require preventives such as verapamil, sometimes combined with steroids. Many patients also receive a nerve block injection during a cycle – an procedure into the side of the head where the pain is that decreases nerve signals.

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Julie Myers
Julie Myers

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